Restore Me audiobook

TW: panic attacks, transphobia, mentions of racism, gun violenceApril 2019 I reread this to annotate it before Defy Me came out and still loved it. It was difficult to annotate because there's a new POV and new characters who i love a lot, so i definitely had a field day putting hearts in the margins. Also I love juliette ferrars so much. SO MUCH.March 2019[READ 5--fourth reread]i reread this spontaneously in preparation for shadow me and that shit HURTED. im thirty times more confused than i was about this book's ending. but the things i enjoyed most about this reread was seeing warner's self-awareness develop and the distinction between different kinds of power and resilience, specifically how juliette has to compartmentalize and separately hone her physical strength and mental strength. loved it as always even though i'm so confused and stressed i could cryJune 2018[READ 4--third reread]I really have no updated review for this other than GODDAMN IT, IT STILL ENDED THE SAME WAY AND I NEED ANSWERS. thanks for attending my tedtalk.March 2018[READ 3--second reread]After reading this for a third time and attending Tahereh's instagram livestream q&a, things just kinda settled into place. There's not much I need to add about how much I adore this story. And I have so much faith that the sad or questionable things that happen in this are meaningful and will be expanded upon in the next books. At this point, yeah it's not gonna be rainbows and butterflies during the year we wait for book 5, but I feel so much more eagerness than terror or dread. This story truly grasped characters I loved and somehow helped them grow yet experience new conflicts that are all realistic and complex and natural. I can't wait to see who narrates the next novella. I can't wait to find out more about her parents. (view spoiler)[I can't wait for brendan to be revealed as actually being alive. (hide spoiler)](btw warnette didn't break up they're both just dramatic as hell so everyone pls rest)(also t confirmed warner and juliette will survive the series)(also t is literally a goddess so why ya'll worried she won't do these characters right)[READ 2--first reread]UMMMM STILL PERFECT I'M SORRY!!!! I still have some issues mainly dealing with plot hole issues that'll probably get sorted out in later books (view spoiler)[(how did castle read her journals?? how does warner not remember her?? how was warner's role with juliette an experiment?? what's the significance of juliette getting struck by a poisoned bullet??) (hide spoiler)], but really any previous problems I had with characterization or pacing or descriptions fell away during this reread. Like I expected, the more it sinks in and feels like a real book, the better it gets. At this point, half of my review is just Shatter Me 5 predictions, so i'll try and only give my updated thoughts lmao:-my new favorite scene in the entire series is drunk juliette scene-warnette angst in this is sSO OOOO GOOD (view spoiler)[i'm not even mad they broke up because it was so bittersweet and their feelings are still so present and asgfhjkhl; i love my babies i trust them. (hide spoiler)]-i think the best line to describe this book is that juliette is dealing with "the frustration of having so much power, so much power and feeling so utterly, completely powerless" (420-421). Once you realize that, NOTHING juliette does comes off as whiney.-honestly unfollow me if you think warnette are whiney and weak in this book. catch me dead not supporting realistic, complex characters who aren't perfect 24/7 and still have two books of growth. -i don't hate adam. i'm sorry. especially with how his power could save peoples' lives in the next books, and (view spoiler)[he might've escaped the hell of that ending? (hide spoiler)] he might save the day.-kenji is.... everything in this book. the BEST companion for juliette, being there for her and letting her rant and providing comic relief. at the same time, telling warner to get his shit together and being the cheerleader for him that he was for juliette in unravel me. you can see the loyalty and trust developing already and im EMO -juliette's (view spoiler)[haircut (hide spoiler)] is so powerful and meaningful and my least favorite thing in books is when people (view spoiler)[cut their hair (hide spoiler)] but this book broke that trope and i couldn't be more proud and i'm so happy that she's happy and she feels the best about herself and now i can't believe (view spoiler)[i also have to shave my head (hide spoiler)]-my only complaint about this book is just the awkwardness of presence/consistency. lena is present in the book, but her only role is to be the ex-girlfriend and cause us to stereotypically start hating her, and she outs a trans character and is generally horrible and physically/verbally abusive for no real prevailing reason. the side characters from omega point we've learned to love weren't in the book except for literally like 4 mentions and maybe 2 lines of dialogue. some facts are only present in this book for one or two mentions when they should seemingly be more important, like preparing for important events or (view spoiler)[the shooter that shot juliette. (hide spoiler)] some parts, like warner's ring or dick tattoo, weren't even referenced at all like they were heavily in the previous trilogy. -anyway back to good stuff-CASTLE'S DEAD SONS /?? ?? ?/ 1! !!! ! !!!-warnette sex scenes? two thumbs up-things that will never be the same after this book: haircuts, bob dylan, bourbon, the word 'restore', taking anxiety medicine, the ocean, helicopters, lorde, and anyone named ella. [READ 1--original review]i'm gonna disclaim right now that when this arrived on my kindle i had such a horrendous panic attack that I thought I would have to delete my twitter and DNF this. I told my friends to spoil me how this ends because I knew I could never stand it otherwise. and i stand by the fact that i would not have made it through this book without knowing what happens. i was so terrified. but anyway OH MY GOD i don't have enough characters left in this review to make a list of all the things i loved. there were imperfect parts, and i was wary that i would have to pretend this never happened, but i can only repeat: OH MY GODupdate: fuck it, i'm gonna make a list. -NAZEERA COULD CHOKE ME WITH HER BARE HANDS AND I WOULD THANK HER FOR IT. I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO BLESSED BY A FEMALE FRIENDSHIP. HER CHALLENGING KENJI ABOUT COVERING HER HAIR. HER FLIPPING HIM OFF. (view spoiler)[HER POWERS. (hide spoiler)] HER KINDNESS AND COMPANIONSHIP. I'M UTTERLY DECEASED-warner and anxiety rep. i like.... it's too soon for me to talk about this seriously but i appreciate it more than words can articulate. my heart actually aches writing this because you can never understand how validating it is for my favorite character to be affected by the same disorder as me. i was floored.-the diversity and discussion of political/social justice topics was [clap emoji] TOO GOOD. (BUT: *it would be a disservice to not mention that reviewers have pointed out the representation of some newer diverse characters is lacking, particularly how the Argentinian characters don't speak an accurate dialect of Spanish, and how the trans character was first outed so violently by a transphobic character.)-JULIETTE MOTHERFUCKING FERRARS CAN CHOKE ME I LOVE HER SO MUCH OH MY GOD AN ICON, A QUEEN, A SUPERSTAR, MADAME SUPREME OF MY HEART!!! Her comment to Lena "You can call me supreme commander of North America" ASDFHLJK;DDJD-james and warner talking to each other ohhhhhh my god-kenji and warner talking to each other ooohhhhhhh my god-basically anyone other than juliette having a conversation with warner-also juliette's conversations with warner-this discusses insecurity and youth and jealousy and regret and healing and ohijdso;kal;gjfdh IT'S SO GOOD-WARNER SPEAKING ARABIC AND SPANISH IM....... OK (NO IM NOT)-warner's inner monologue is......... everything. i mean that both literally because of its weight and meaningfulness, but also his sarcasm is perf-(view spoiler)[um honestly drunk juliette scene had me 100% fucked up but also ready to shave my own head fontiene style (hide spoiler)]-this book takes place in march.... bitch im just sayin they better sort their shit out so i can get a HAPPY warner birthday scene-warner and kenji talking about girls fiduhljiasdfkjnlkfgsas-THAT!!!! FRIKIN!!!!! ENDING!!!!!! WHAAAATTTTTT JULIETTE FERRARS DID THAAATTTTTTi need a nap ok byeFebruary 2018Here's the notes I typed up for my second predictions video!RESTORE ME PREDICTIONS 2January 2018So the sampler for Restore Me came out, giving us 31 beautiful pages of content. I filmed a reaction and theories video, but here's my notes about it.RESTORE ME PREDICTIONS 1So far, I would rate this five stars if I could. And that's not just because it's a Tahereh Mafi book--trust me, I was worried about this book. But everything so far is done really smartly and anything I'm upset about is almost entirely driven by the fact that it's not matching up with my expectations, which is an entirely unfounded criticism to make, so i'm withholding it and getting over it. I NEED MOOOOOOOORE!!!!!April 2017Well. Here we are again. I missed you, my babies. It's overdue we meet again. Today I woke up at 10 AM to my friend (hi Olivia) spam texting me my name over and over, and from that moment, I knew. There was Mafi news today. I was thinking maybe a novella. Maybe a rewrite from Warner's POV. Maybe one sequel. But three books added? I didn't hear anything in any of my classes today. I've cried on and off all day. I can't focus on my homework, can't do anything except refresh Twitter. Only five hours after learning the news about the new book, I filmed a reaction and my theories for the sequel, which totaled over an hour of footage. I've been waiting so long for this. And since i've been so calm throughout the duration of this review, allow me to release my true feelings:LANJF DKMLWQHJPF 9UWYOE82Y1HUOWJFNWD;LKJ[OEI2UJP982CY1C 070N4 89 YRP928 FEU JWDLJFLDSJHLIUQYNO8713YOR 89PWU0 DHSOUHEIHBLWJKN FLWHYES YES YE SY ESY ESY EYS ESY ESY ESYE SYE SY ESY ESYFHEWUFHIDSJ FOIWJFOEWH OIUYESEEEEESSSS YEEEEESSSSSSSS IM SO HAPPY IM SO HAPPY IM SO RHAPPY HIIM SHAO HPAPYP IOREJF JDLFK DWJOI2JPEIUH2PF9UHRNONFUE20PHF92EHFP9U2JNR3OJFENIUH VYE SU YES AJIEOIJWFLU HAOHHHHHH AHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Real rating: 4.5 starsI loved this book and I'm so happy that I decided to give the second part of this series a chance.Right from the beginning, the worldbuilding is finally tackled, which I think is was one of the problems that people had with the first three books. I personally didn't find it a big problem in the books because Juliette was the only POV character and what she didn’t know wasn’t for the reader to know. This is made very clear right from the start of Restore Me, and her ignorance about the world and everything she got herself into is a big catalyst to the story.However, the fact that there’s a lot more worldbuilding doesn’t take away from the very romance-y feel of the first three books. This book is literally packed with romance and it’s the kind of romance (with its ups and downs) that you can expect from an established relationship. It’s about two people who love each other but have gotten together under extreme circumstances and don’t actually know that much about each other, and they need to work towards this.Despite me not really having reread the first three books recently, I think both Juliette and Warner felt like the same characters, especially Warner. This was great to see because it would have been too easy (and crappy) to have them both be different people just because they’re in a relationship. Also, the book starts only two weeks after the events of Ignite Me, so it’s not like they could have changed that much in that time anyway.One of things I was most looking forward to in the book was Warner’s POV. After falling in love with him after like, two pages of the novella Destroy Me, his POV was literally what made me want to continue reading the series despite not being sure whether I would still like it. And I’m so happy to say that his POV was probably the best part of this book. His pain and grief as an abuse survivor was something I deeply related to. I can’t comment on the anxiety rep but it felt much-needed and real.I also liked that Warnette’s relationship wasn’t the only one addressed here. Some of the other old characters aren’t completely forgotten, even though most of them are in the background, with the exception of Kenji, Adam, James and Castle.I don’t remember much about Castle in the original trilogy to be completely honest but here he was kind of a central character and he acted as sort of an advisor to both Warner and Juliette. He felt like the archetypical mentor figure of YA that I feel has kind of been lost in the past years’ new releases. I liked that he also tried to not completely overstep his boundaries, even though I found he could have tried to help more.Adam wasn’t very central to the plot at all but I actually loved the few scenes he had (me, loving Adam scenes? Doesn’t seem possible, yet here I am). Some of the shitty things he did in the original trilogy were addressed and I liked how he and Warner finally started to tentatively form a relationship. Also, James keeps being adorable and precious.I left Kenji for last because he’s just the best supporting character ever. All I remembered from him is that I loved him, and now my love for him has only grown stronger. I love how supportive of Juliette he was, and he finally got some much needed bonding time with Warner. I had to laugh so much at their interactions, even when things were overall dramatic, but he’s just too fun not to love.There are obviously also a few new side characters, and one of them I loved most of all: Nazeera is my Wife™ and I’m so happy that Juliette finally has a much needed female friendship. Nazeera is just too iconic and I can’t wait to see more of her in the next book.This is a very character-driven book but it doesn’t lack amazing plot twists. I have to admit I had guessed the ending’s reveal at around the halfway point of the book, but I was still super invested and there was obviously more to the ending than the *reveal*, and I had to jump up and down while reading the last few chapters because y’alL WHAT WAS THAT. There’s also the fact that I finished this in just a handful of hours on release date despite this being almost 500 pages long and that hasn’t happened in ages. So it’s safe to say that this totally kept me glued to the page and it felt so nice to have that experience again.I wish I could end my review here but I can’t in good conscience not mention the one problem I had with this book. The next part will be more of a discussion and it got a bit long so you’re free to consider this review finished. Full list of trigger warnings at the end. *discussion part* Trigger warning for mention of transphobia in the next paragraphs:Towards the 90% mark of the ebook (idk what page that is) a trans character is introduced. That’s great, but I found the way the character was introduced super problematic. I will say I am a cis person and I don’t want to overstep my boundaries, but this book is just too new at the point in which I’m reviewing it and I haven’t been able to find an ownvoices trans reviewer talk about this. If you find one please send it my way.Anyway, the trans character literally only gets one or two lines of dialogue, and we wouldn’t know that she’s trans unless another side character pointed it out in a transphobic way, saying the trans character, whose name is Valentina, is “playing pretend”. The chapter where this happens is from Warner’s POV, who already knew about the character being a trans woman, but he doesn’t really do anything to defend her. Instead, Valentina has to defend herself, and then the matter is simply pushed aside to continue with the plot.I personally found this scene very bad for a few reasons:• the trans character is essentially outed while her twin brother is introducing her to Juliette, who hasn’t met her before• she’s not only outed, but also all the comments that are made about her are transphobic ones• Kenji, who has grown up in the world before the Reestablishment took control, acts confused as if he doesn’t understand what’s going on, AKA even after the character is outed he doesn’t seem to understand that she’s a trans woman. I don’t understand the purpose of his line at all.• I think this is a weird case of “queer people used for furthering a non-queer person’s narrative”, in the sense that the transphobic comments are used in order to convince the reader that the character who’s speaking, who has previously in the book already been coded as being a generally bad person, is, in fact, a bad person. Even in the best case scenario, this is just poor writing, because there were certainly other and better ways to indicate without a doubt that this character is an asshole.The thing is, this scene isn’t necessarily unrealistic, but I think when writing any kind of queer representation you have to ask yourself, who are you writing this for? The answer should always be that you are writing this for queer people to see themselves represented. This scene didn’t feel at all like it was written for trans people. Especially since the comments weren’t challenged at all, and it was all so sudden and unexpected that there is no way a trans reader would have time to prepare themselves to see the transphobia coming.As I said, everything I mentioned above are things I think of as bad because if something similar (outing etc) had happened for a rep I’m ownvoices for I would be livid. Since there are no trigger warnings in the book, in this case I’m choosing not to stay in my lane in the hope to spare a trans person some hurt. I will be happy to link to trans reviewers once more people have read the book, but so far I haven’t really seen anything about this.End of TW for transphobiaSomething else I saw on twitter from an Argentinean reader is that the Spanish that Valentina and her brother speak is not actually the kind of Spanish they speak in Argentina.Both of these issues make it clear that nobody bothered hiring sensitivity readers for both trans and Argentinean representation, and that’s something that especially big publishers keep doing. I think that’s something that more readers should demand because there’s nothing that hurts more than seeing bad rep.TWs: mention of paste abuse, mention of alcoholism, alcohol abuse, meds abuse, anxiety, panic attack on page, unchallenged transphobic comments_____Pre-read:Me: I don't know are we really sure that expanding this series is necessaryBook: I'm going to have Juliette and Warner's PoVMe:

Enjoyed this, but I feel like it ended mid story. Things were just getting started, so I'm excited to dive into the next one =)

By now a few days have passed ever since I finished reading this book, yet my first reaction to “Restore Me” still remains the same.WHAT THE FREAKING HELL??!!WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK??!!WHAT DID I JUST READ??!!CAN ANYONE TELL ME WHAT I JUST READ?!!And those were only four of the nicer things I thought when I closed the last page of this mind-blowing book! After reading this I’m shook to the core and my feelings are still all over the place! Tahereh Mafi SHATTERED, UNRAVELLED and DESTROYED me with every single line. To read this felt like someone was constantly punching me, hurting my body and my soul!! Oh god, all those revelations! I can’t even... I’m still thinking about everything that happened in this book, I’m trying to wrap my head around it, I’m trying to understand it, but I just can’t. This was just too much!!! My brain suffers from an overload of thoughts and feels and I’m desperately trying to recover from all the different blows. They came from every direction and boy did it hurt!! *cries*TAHEREH HOW DARE YOU TO WRITE SUCH A BOOK AND THEN LET US WAIT FOR AN ENTIRE YEAR?!!!??I wish I would have never bought this…I wish I would have never read this…I wish I wouldn’t have to wait for the next book…This is pure torture…“Restore Me”??!! *shakes head*Are you kidding me Tahereh? You should have named it “Ruin Me”, “Devastate Me” or “Destruct Me”!Not “Restore Me” why did you name this book like that?!!!I can’t … I just can’t anymore… *sobs violently*The plot:Juliette Ferrars is the new Supreme Commander of America and struggling to maintain a tight grip on her newfound powers and responsibility. There are a lot of things she hasn’t figured out yet and as the days go by she’s trying her best to take one step after the other forcing herself not to crumble under the sheer force of the new role that has been bestowed upon her. Will she be able to deal with the consequences of her actions or will her past cause her to falter?! The characters: I’m so going to spoil the hell out of this section because FEELS!!! I can’t keep them in and if you don’t want to be captured in the midst of my raging emotions you better don’t continue to read! You’ve been warned! This is going to be a spoiler FEAST!!! Juliette:”I’m not proud that I’ve thought that.Or that, in the quietest, loneliest hours of the morning I lie awake next to the son Anderson tortured nearly to death and wish that Anderson would return from the dead and take back the burden I stole from his shoulders.”Where did the brave Juliette from “Ignite Me” go? I mean yeah, I knew she wouldn’t change overnight and that all her actions of the first three books would have some serious consequences, for some reason I really hoped that by now she would have developed more self-confidence though. I mean I get it! There’s a lot of responsibility on her shoulders and all those revelations were hitting her relentlessly, but despite all that some part of me still expected her to be stronger. She’s so powerful, why should she ever be afraid?! Plus even a blind person could see that Warner loves her more than anything else! How can she be so oblivious?! And that moment when she got drunk and shaved her head? This was such a 2007 Britney Spears move. I can understand why she was angry at Warner, I don’t get why she had to push him away so thoroughly though. It’s not like he knew the entire truth. I don’t like what happened to my independent and kick-ass Juliette from “Ignite Me” and I really hope that she’ll regain some of her self-assurance in the next book. Plus can we please talk about the fact that she killed an entire room full of people?! With nothing more than a scream?!! WTF?!!! O_o There’s a lot of explaining to do!!”She steps forward. She looks suddenly terrifying. There’s a fire in her eyes. A murderous stillness in her movements. “If I ever catch you putting your hands on him again, I will tear open your chest,” she says, “and rip out your heart.””Getting angry and going to war, I understand. But patiently playing a confusing game of chess with a bunch of stranger from around the world?God, I’d so much rather shoot someone.””Right now I can see her, this other version of myself, I can see her dragging her dirty fingernails against the chambers of my heart, drawing blood. And if I could reach inside myself and rip her out of me with my own two hands, I would.””I’m trying to come to terms with the fact that nothing is going to be the same for me, not ever again, and I have no idea who to trust or how to move forward. So yeah,” I say, nearly shouting the words, “right now I don’t care about anything. Because I don’t know what I’m fighting for anymore. And I don’t know who my friends are. Right now,” I say, “everyone is my enemy, including you.”Warner:”I feel old and unsettled, my heart and mind at war.” My precious boy, my awesomeness on two legs!! Gosh, I love him so much!!!

"I cannot let the broken girl inside of me inhale all that I've become. I cannot revert back to another version of myself. I will not shatter, not again, in the wake of an emotional earthquake." NoNoNoNONO that can't be it, I need more. SOMEONE GIVE ME THE NEXT BOOK RIGHT NOW.Finally I'm back in this world. I have been waiting for this moment since this book was announced. I was really excited to see how Tahereh Mafi would continue this series after the ending of Ignite Me and this book definitely took the turn I was expecting when I first read the blurb. I was ecstatic about the fact that I would see Warner, Juliette, and Kenji after so long but believe me when I say that this book in no way portrays even a relatively easy life for these characters. I definitely feel like this book has a darker feel to it compared to any of the 3 previous books. In the first 3 books, we see Juliette struggle with her powers and she is relatively new to the uprising but now that she has control over her powers it was interesting to see if her character arcs in the book.Juliette has taken over as Supreme Commander of the 45 Sector and the job is nothing like she expected or wanted. I have never really been a fan of Juliette's personality but I continue to enjoy reading from her perspective alongside Warner's. We also see some of the entries in Juliette's diary when she was at the asylum and the entries allow us to see her darker more vengeful side but also how helpless and trapped she felt in her own life. After reading this book it became very clear to why this book can be considered a part of the second trilogy in the series and not a direct extension of the first. The first 3 books clearly share the same kind of ambiance but this book definitely branches off to another part of their lives and has a different air surrounding it. I really enjoyed this book and I can't wait for the next two.The characters have grown a lot since the last book, Juliette definitely among them, and a few more deadly secrets are revealed. This book introduces a new direction for the series while still maintaining the integrity of the previous books. There are a few explosions and power outbreaks, if you can call it that, and the relationship between different characters changes, grows, or develops.In this fourth installment loyalties will be questioned and trust is broken. Our characters will experience pain like they never have before. I can’t wait to see where these characters are headed, given the eye opening ending, and I think there is nothing more to do then hope for the best and hope or hearts are not torn out of our chests.

Yeah I read this book like super freaking fast! WTF HAPPEN IN THIS BOOK? I wish I could give this book a million stars ✨ , because 5 is not enough.This book just fucked with my mind in the best and worst way possible.I’m happy about it, don’t get me wrong, but also pissed 😤 you know?The story keeps getting better and better and crazier then ever.So much happened that I had at least 5 heart-attacks. I’m absolutely more in love with this series then I was before. I’m so excited and sad at the same time for the sequel, because it will be more close to the end and because of the ending of this book (like what that hell was that?), but I also need more of this beautiful, breathtaking story and freaking bloody answers.I had thought about what happen being possible but I didn’t thought IT WAS ACTUALLY GOING TO HAPPEN!!!!!!!!Give me the next book right this fucking minute.I’M LOST IN FEELINGS THAT I DON’T LIKE!!!!!!!!!But this book was fucking awesome😎 but WTF?What that hell was that ending?I adore literally everything that happened, even though it was shit (good and bad shit).But like, we don’t have a release date for the next book, which means NO FUCKING ANSWERS UNTIL THEN. And how I am supposed to want to live after this end? Like NOOOO!.!.!GIVE ME THE SEQUEL RIGHT NOW.[image error]

Full review HERE!Here’s a list of things you will NOT expect from Restore Me:-Any of the plot twists, seriously, not one-Having your chest ripped open while Tahereh Mafi stands over you manually pumping your heart for you and letting you know that at a moments notice she can ruin your life and end youBecause she really did just do that, she really left us with one of the most devastating cliffhanger I’ve ever read. Tahereh, also said she didn’t think this book ended on a sad note and I want to know WHAT IS YOUR DEFINITION OF SAD?! BECAUSE I MEAN I’M BARELY BREATHING OVER HERE.SON OF A CLIFF HANGER. SON OF A FUCKING CLIFF HANGER. Tahereh, when I said pls don’t break my heart I also meant pls don’t shatter it into a million pieces and leave me lost, nervous, and confused FOR A YEAR. Who told you you could toy with my emotions like that, leave me hanging like that, RUIN MY LIFE LIKE THAT?! Goodbye everyone. It was nice knowing you all. Blog | Twitter | Instagram

5 THE PAST WILL NOT FORGET ME ★'s“I cannot let the broken girl inside of me inhale all that I've become. I cannot revert back to another version of myself. I will not shatter, not again, in the wake of an emotional earthquake.”“The destruction of the world didn’t happen overnight, and neither will saving it.” Holy. Fucking. Shit. That was insane! I can't even begin to process what the hell I'm feeling, because there are way, way, way, to many emotions going through me at the moment. My mind is reeling at everything that has just conspired. My strongest emotion throughout reading 'Restore Me' was a deep sadness. Heartache. It was like having a bowling ball sitting on my chest the whole time and I couldn't breathe. It put tears in my eyes in the second chapter...THE SECOND DAMN CHAPTER!!! Witch is in Warner's POV. So now you understand exactly how long I've had this weight on my chest and it's still there. You won't just cry, you will also laugh and smile and swoon (Over Warner). 'Restore Me' was so unbelievably unbearably wonderfully Painful! My heart broke piece by piece until finally, what was left of it just shattered and I don't know how to put it back together. I am equal parts happy and pissed off, but in a good way, if that makes any sense. I devoured this in ONE day! It was so captivating, it had me at the edge of my seat. The world, the plot, the writing and the characters are everything. The best way to describe what happens is this- One bad thing happens after another, revelation after revelation, about the Reestablishment, things about Juliette and Warner's past. I'm still in shock after that ending!! I have no idea how in the hell Tahereh Mafi expects us to wait a WHOLE YEAR to read the next book. When I'm already dying to know what happens! This wait is gonna be the death of me :( “This, I think, is the way to die.I could drown in this moment and I’d never regret it. I could catch fire from this kiss and happily turn to ash. I could live here, die here, right here, against his hips, his lips. In the emotion in his eyes as he sinks into me, his heartbeats indistinguishable from mine.This. Forever. This.” “It hits me with a painful force, the reminder. Of just how much I love her. God, I love all of her. Her impossibilities, her exasperations. I love how gentle she is with me when we’re alone. How soft and kind she can be in our quiet moments. How she never hesitates to defend me.I love her.” *Omg! That cover is absolutely freaking stunning!!!*

April 26th, 2017:I'm torn between 'GIVE IT TO ME NOW' and 'please, don't ruin my ship, my precious otp...'Also I liked how Ignite Me ended, soooooooo I guess we'll see *keeps all the fingers crossed*March 17th, 2018:“All of you kids,” he says, shaking his head. “You suffer too much. You have these horrible, tragic histories. Volatile personalities. I've always wanted to help,” he says. “I've always wanted to fix that. Make this world a better place for you kids.”I cannot believe I had to wait for three years to read this book. And now it’s done, and we have to wait another full year to know what happens next. This is a new kind of torture. Well done, Tahereh. Well done.I was one of those who thought the end of Ignite Me was perfect. I genuinely liked how the story finished, we didn’t know exactly what Juliette and Warner would have to go through, but we had put our hope in them. Well, even my ‘I loved Ignite Me’s end’ ass loved this book. I see how it’s not for everybody, because true, it’s a very slow book, nothing really happens, but for a first book in this new trilogy? It’s perfect. It answers all the questions I had about Juliette’s past and it’s realistic? Like, I would have found it weird if Juliette had been able to be this perfect Supreme Commander even though she’s fucking new to this world.This book is more about Juliette and Warner confronting their past, thinking about what’s going to happen next now that they’re in power. What comes next? What should they do? Who should they trust? And we finally learn more about this world, about why the Reestablishment was created in the first place, how it was created, who is at its head …. all these questions I had are starting to get answered.This book destroyed my soul. I hurt so much throughout this book but in a way I’m hopeful for what’s to come in the next book. I trust Tahereh.May 8th, 2020:look at how casually I'm bumping this book from 4.75 to 5 stars:)))))))))) this reread destroyed everything I had in me.

”idiots are highly flammable, love. let them all burn in hell.” firstly, WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT ENDING??!? i’m literally speechless rn. HOLY SHIT, THAT WAS INSANE!!!— although i did not love this compared to the previous book it was still good. this story was slow and pretty boring right up to the last 20% and the plot was lacking, but still let me say all the secrets and lies in this book had me GASPING!!THE MISCOMMUNICATION IN THIS BOOK HURTS!! IT LITERALLY STRESSED ME TF OUT. literally all the conflicts in this book was from miscommunication or from the lack of communication, it was infuriating.idk what happened to the confident and strong juliette i grew to love—her character development completely backtracked in this book and i was so disappointed!!juliette, has just become supreme commander despite knowing nothing abt politics, she is clueless on what to do with all this given power and keeps doubting her ability to rule her nation. she appears to be more insecure in this story and would make dumb decisions but i support women’s wrongs

I. Am. Not. Okay. After that cliffhanger, I'm not sure how I'm supposed to wait a whole year for the next installment.

”Idiots are highly flammable, love. Let them all burn in hell”.¿Se imaginan mi felicidad absoluta el día en que Tahereh Mafi anunció que Shatter Me no era una trilogía sino una hexalogía? ¡Casi muero! ¡Eso significaba tener más Warner, Juliette y Kenji en mi vida! Pero también significaba expectativas altísimas. Al acabar Ignite Me, creo que como todos, terminé con una sensación de vacío por la falta de un epílogo que nos diera a entender qué iba a suceder con el Restablecimiento, pero a la vez me daba un poco igual porque Juliette y Warner habían ganado y ahora iban a poder ser felices y comer perdices. Pero no. Con la llega de Restore Me toda la trama continúa. Aquí nos encontramos con un gran cambio de poder pues Juliette “ganó” su revolución asesinando al Supremo Comandante, el padre de Warner y Adam, así que ahora debe ejercer sus funciones y probar su valía ante el resto de los Supremos Comandantes de otros continentes. Pero Juliette muy pronto entenderá que no tiene ni idea de política, de diplomacia y que no está preparada para asumir tantísimo poder. En medio de tensiones políticas, discusiones con un Castle de actitud muy sospechosa y la sospecha de que Warner le está ocultando muchísima información, Juliette debe sortear este nuevo reto y poner orden a todo el territorio que ahora depende de ella. Todo esto, claro, al tiempo que intenta vivir su relación con Warner y no perderse en el mar de dudas que la asaltan a cada segundo. Restore Me es un libro de cambios y es una gran introducción al mundo de cómo funciona realmente el Restablecimiento, quiénes son sus líderes, qué es lo que buscan y, sobre todo, qué secretos guardan. A medida que pasan las páginas y estamos tan perdidos como Juliette, entendemos lo abrumador que es enfrentarse a un cargo para el cual no la han preparado toda la vida. Todos sabemos que Warner estaba destinado a ese puesto, pero la gente no lo quiere, así que Juliette debe cargar con ese peso. Sin embargo, en cuanto la diplomacia empieza a entrar en juego, se ve clarísimo cómo los años de experiencia de Warner sí pueden hacer una gran diferencia. Y ahí es cuando empieza la tensión. Después de una guerra tremenda, todos los personajes están tratando de curar sus heridas físicas y emocionales, pero la rapidez con la que todo avanza no les está dejando mucho tiempo para maniobrar. Juliette no ha podido procesar la cantidad nueva de poder y responsabilidades que tiene, Warner está en una especie de duelo por la pérdida de su padre y debatiéndose constantemente sobre si revelarle a Juliette la verdad de su pasado, Kenji intenta ser gracioso pero también ha pasado por mucho y Adam… bueno, Adam se vuelve una persona tolerable en este libro. Creo que, al ser Restore Me un libro de encontrar balances y catapultar una nueva dinámica y trama para los personajes, es un poco lento y no tan atractivo como los tres primeros. Me frustraba muchísimo leer a los personajes tan distantes, tan enemistados los unos con los otros y sucumbiendo ante el mal genio por la presión bajo la que están. En realidad, además de algunas cuantas escenas que comentaré en la sección de spoilers, el libro estaba siendo bastante flojo para mí… pero luego llegó el final. EL FINAL. QUÉ PASADA DE FINAL. Es explosivo, sorprendente y realmente refleja todos los conflictos que se han ido acumulando en esta nueva etapa de los personajes. Madre mía. Es tremendo cambiar completamente de opinión sobre un libro únicamente por las páginas finales, pero les juro que estas lo ameritan. Ahora, ¡empiezan los spoilers!1. ¿Podemos hablar de Kenji cortándole mal el pelo a Warner y él queriendo asesinarlo? LOL. 2. No sé ustedes, chicos, pero a mí la actitud de Castle en este libro me deja muy preocupada. No sé para quién está trabajando, no sé por qué sabe tanto, no sé por qué insiste en chantajear a Warner de esa manera con su pasado. Ese hombre ha pasado de ser una figura de mentor a alguien en quien no confío ni un pelo. 3. OMG! La escena más épica de todo Restore Me es, sin duda, cuando Juliette sobrepasada por todo se va a la habitación designada al Supremo Comandante y encuentra todo el licor que guardaba Anderson y se emborracha. ¡Dioses! Todo lo que dice, todo lo que hace y cómo se le insinúa a Warner incluso delante de Kenji, maaaadre mía. Es muy gracioso todo. 4. Yo ya me imaginaba que el pasado de Warner era bastante turbio, teniendo como padre a Anderson no me esperaba nada diferente, pero, joder, todo fue muy fuerte. Que él supiera que los padres de Juliette en realidad eran padres adoptivos, que supiera que Juliette no era hija única y que, encima, Anderson lo haya obligado a torturar a la hermana de Juliette. Damn. Ahora, lo que no me explico es la reacción desmedida de Juliette a todo esto. Es decir, sí, Warner no le dijo que sus verdaderos padres estaban vivos y la habían donado al Restablecimiento para que la estudiara cual conejillo de indias… PERO LO HIZO PARA PROTEGERLA. Y, luego, echarle en cara lo de la hermana cuando él ni siquiera la conocía y no tenía ni idea y estaba siguiendo órdenes de un tipo aterrador… Pf. 5. Ahora, acabo de decir que Warner no conocía a Juliette, pero en realidad sí se conocieron de pequeños pero cuando Juliette se llamaba Elle. SAY WHAT? Pues sí, que resulta que los padres de Juliette son los Supremos Comandantes de Oceanía y como todos los hijos de los Supremos Comandantes jugaban juntos cuando sus padres se reunían pues… ¡SORPRESA! Juliette y Warner sí que se conocían, aksjfhkldjsfhkjsdf. 6. Juliette terminando con Warner. JODER. Mi corazón aún no se recupera. Es algo… shit, es que no estoy preparada para lidiar con esa clase de dolor. No, no, no. Son mi OTP y sé que en el futuro se van a arreglar, pero AHORA NO ESTÁN JUNTOS Y EL MUNDO ES DEMASIADO HORRENDO. Y es que me pone muy triste porque Juliette es la única que no se da cuenta de que Warner la ama muchísimo y todo lo que hace es para protegerla o porque él sencillamente no está listo para enfrentarse a todos los fantasmas de su pasado. ¡Además ella es la primera persona por la que siente cosas reales y eso es scary as fuck!7. Hablemos del momento en el que Warner tiene un ataque de pánico nivel épico y Kenji lo ayuda a tranquilizarse Y ES QUE NO PUEDO AMARLOS MÁS A LOS DOS. Dioses, les juro que si no supiera que Warner debería quedar con Juliette, shippearía a Warner con Kenji. Los amo. Muchísimo. 8. ¡Me encanta la volatilidad y diversidad de personalidades de los hijos de los Supremos Comandantes! A ver, no es que confíe en absolutamente ninguno, pero me parecen muy interesantes. ¿Y QUÉ TAL EL SECRETO DE NAZEERA? ¡Tiene podeeeeeres! OMG Y LO TONTITO QUE SE PONE KENJI ALREDEDOR DE ELLA. Esos dos tienen que terminar juntos. He dicho. 9. Y saltemos al final porque JO-DER. Cuando Juliette logra reunir a 554 personas que representan a todos los sectores y los diferentes continentes en una cima diplomática para establecer el nuevo rumbo del Restablecimiento y el cambio de poder todo se va al demonio. En cuanto empieza a hablar todos la desacreditan y dudan de sus capacidades de liderazgo y ella, absolutamente harta de todo, de la incertidumbre, de las dudas, del tener poder pero realmente no poder usarlo, explota y suelta un grito de desesperación. PERO OLVIDA CONTROLARSE Y A SUS PODERES Y EN ESE GRITO ENVÍA TODA SU ENERGÍA LETAL Y MATA A ABSOLUTAMENTE TODO EL AUDITORIO. Políticos, diplomáticos, gente importante, personas de Omega Point, todos asesinados. 10. All hell breaks lose y llegan más personas, algunos capturan a Kenji, otros a Warner, Juliette grita y lo último que recuerda es ver a dos personas llevándosela a ella. Cuando se despierta descubre que está en Nueva Zelanda y que quienes la secuestraron son sus supuestos padres verdaderos, los Supremos Comandantes de Oceanía. Y AHÍ SE ACABA TODO. QUIERO SABER A DÓNDE SE LLEVARON A MI BEBÉ WARNER Y QUÉ LE VAN A HACER.

„Were you happy Were you sad Were you scared Were you mad the first time you screamed? Were you fighting for your life your decency your dignity your humanity When someone touches you now, do you scream? When someone smiles at you now, do you smile back? Did he tell you not to scream did he hit you when you cried? Did he have one nose two eyes two lips two cheeks two ears two eyebrows. Was he one human who looked just like you. Color your personality. Shapes and sizes are variety. Your heart is an anomaly. Your actions are the only traces you leave behind.“ Story ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️First of all: WHAT THE HELL?? HOW COULD MAFI END THID BOOK WITH SUCH A DEVASTATING CLIFF HANGER?! Oh my god this book was so addictive, so good, so heartbreaking and absolutely brutal. I’ll probably need to recover until the next book comes out. Oh, and I need to try to piece my heart back together. How long do we need to wait for the next book? I feel like it’s already been ages (it came out two days ago and I finished it like twenty seconds ago, but still... feels like an eternity). I know some of you are a little bit unsure about the whole fourth book thing, but I was really happy diving into this world and meeting all my favorite characters again. If you were skeptical about Juliet’s role as a ruler, you get a few answers in this book. Also, we get a few new characters, lots of drama and action and Juliet is finally an absolute badass. Oh, and don’t forget Warner. I loved him in the first/second/third book and nothing changed in the fourth book. He didn’t have a nice fluffy childhood with loving parents and real friends. But we get to know a lot about his past and that makes me really happy. All in all I’m really happy that I read this book, because I was finally able to see their story continue. And there were so many plot twists! Holy sh**! I can’t wait for the next two books to come. Characters ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️Finally Juliet grew up to be an adult. Not full mode adult, but like a little bit more mature than in the previous books. She’s still a teenager, she still makes mistakes, but that’s absolutely normal. If someone would write a perfect, super intelligent main character with no flaws I would probably throw this book out of the window. But this... she’s not perfect and that makes her so much more relatable. Of course Warner played a big role in this book. He’s still this supportive, handsome partner, but we get to see that Warner had an even more horrible childhood than we all assumed. We get to see a weaker part of him we never noticed before. And it made him even more lovable. ♥️My dream-best-friend Kenji aka handsome boy aka funniest guy on the planet has a strong role in this book. He’s the perfect best friend we all want to have and I absolute love him.Also we have a few new characters, that are actually pretty fascinating and cool, so I can’t wait for the other books so we can meet them a little bit more. World ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️We get to see how the Reestablishment actually separated the whole world and how they’re accomplished their strong hold on the world and power. It was super interesting to see the whole mechanism, history and people. Also we have gay, transsexual and all types of different people. I loved it! Finally Tahereh did some refreshing changes and put in some interesting new characters (even though we just met them some short time). Relationships ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️Oh my god. Drama. There’s drama everywhere. In the beginning of this book I was super super happy only to get my heart broke into a thousand pieces and then Tahereh actually burned my heart down. Did it kill me? Probably. Was it heartbreaking? Definitely. Will I read it again only to die a few times more? Absolutely. Writing style ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️Oh, Tahereh. You freakin genius. Your writing is everything and I love it so much. Warner’s POV was exactly what I wanted and didn’t know I needed. Really looking into his mind and seeing all this thoughts and emotions was beautiful. Oh my god, I loved it. They were excerpts out of Juliet’s journal from book two and I was a little bit skeptical about it, but then a friend said, that with the excerpts you can actually see that Juliet’s past comes hunting her down. They were scenes I will never forget and conversations I loved.____________________________________________________Me: “Hello? Yeah, it’s Jessi. I can’t come to work today, Restore me came out.” Also me: Btw. Three pages in and I’m (again) head over heels in love with Warner. ♥️