Sorrow and Bliss audiobook

“Everything is broken and messed up and completely fine. That is what life is. It's only the ratios that change. usually on their own.” It's not often that books this charming and irreverently funny are also as sad, moving and hard-hitting. Eleanor Oliphant is one that did it for me. Queenie is another. Sorrow and Bliss is the latest addition to the short list of "books that make me feel like laughing and crying in equal measure". I admit this list needs a catchier title.Sorrow and Bliss is, essentially, about mental illness, the debilitating and relationship-destroying effect it can have on a person's life, and the importance of a correct diagnosis and treatment plan. It felt like a healing balm after I had such a negative reaction to the widely-loved Bewilderment. From now on, I may just refer commenters to this book instead of trying to explain my problem with the neurotypical Theo's anti-label, anti-diagnosis stance for his clearly neurodivergent son. This quote sums it up: "But the thing about labels is, they're useful when they're right because," I carried on through her attempt at interruption, "because then you don't give yourself the wrong ones, like difficult or insane, or psychotic or a bad wife." I really do know how it feels to feel like you're just failing at being human and how wonderful and liberating it is to find answers.But also, this book is a love story. A sweet, tender, rips-your-heart-out-of-your-chest love story. The book opens with Martha's husband Patrick leaving her two days after her fortieth birthday. The story then takes us back to the beginning, to their first meeting when Martha was fourteen and through all the ups and downs that came after. It got to a point where I was desperately reading towards what I knew was coming, heartbroken, hoping things would-- could --resolve in a way that didn't leave me destroyed.I felt deeply invested in these characters in a way I haven't felt for a while. A combination of heart-tugging sadness, humour and short, punchy chapters made it impossible to put down.

What I enjoyed most about Meg Mason’s “Sorrow and Bliss” is that she portrayed mental illness in its complicated and realistic light. In “Sorrow and Bliss”, the main character, Martha, is a true queen of self-sabotaging. She possesses awareness though. She understands she’s messing up, and she knows there is something wrong with her. Something happened to her when she turned seventeen; she can’t explain it other than it’s like a bomb went off in her brain. Basically she’s a healthy and happy person; yet, at times she’s a miserable mess, and she just can’t pull herself out of it. She’s seen doctors and psychiatrists, all prescribing different meds, all with the caution of NOT getting pregnant while taking these meds. This is a character driven story of a woman who has loving family and friends who support her. What is special in this novel is how author Mason shows the tenacles that mental illness imbeds in families. It’s not just the sufferer who is impacted, it’s all the loved ones as well. And the exhaustion that family and friends suffer while trying to support and understand. Another special quality of the story is that Mason creates Martha realistically. Martha is funny, although her humor is a bit acerbic and sarcastic. Martha is very tight with her sister Ingrid, and their dialogues are hilarious, generally in a biting way. Martha’s significant other, Patrick, is also a funny guy. How they view the world is clever and witty.Mason never names Martha’s illness. Martha does eventually end up being diagnosed, but Mason chooses to NOT share that information with the reader. After reading the novel, I immediately googled the book and everything about it, trying to ascertain if I missed something. No, she did it purposefully, and I have to say I like it. It took a while for my dust to settle, but I realized that Mason’s point is that mental illness can be something that cannot be pigeonholed. Plus, I believe we all suffer through different bouts of it through life. Why must everything be classified? Not everyone requires the help of medication, and Mason shows how meds aren’t the answer to all our ills. I like the realistic portrayal of a life journey in mental illness. I love the impact Mason shows that the illness affects so many people. At times I wanted to shake Martha and say, “snap out of it!”. But that just shows how good this book is. I got involved in Martha’s life. I was frustrated with Martha. I wept for Martha (a lot). I rooted for her and her happiness. I wanted her as a friend, and then I didn’t want her as a friend. The complicated lives of those afflicted and those who love the afflicted is beautifully portrayed here.

trying to sit at the cool kids table (reading a book i saw on instagram)review to come / 3.5

5★“But apparently I just exist in terms of my relationship to other people now . . . Days later, Ingrid . . . sent a photo of her hand, holding a Starbucks cup. Instead of asking her name, the person who took her order had just written LADY WITH PRAM.”Martha’s sister, Ingrid, is a new mother. Martha is the troubled, funny, smart, clever, tortured young woman who doesn’t know who she is, and it’s been her sister who has helped her retain some sense of self. So it’s ironic that Ingrid is feeling a loss of identity. Later, after more children…“. . .she sent the eggplant emoji, the cherries and the open scissors. She said Hamish is non-figuratively getting the snip.”This is not a funny book, but it has lots of funny bits, clever repartee and flirting. It also has cringing awkwardness and poignant tenderness. Sorrow and bliss.Great title for what is now one of my favourite books. Martha and Ingrid are daughters of artistic parents. Father is an unpublished poet who works in his study, while Mother repurposes found objects in her studio/shed (DO NOT DISTURB) and fires off cruel comments at everybody.Mother’s sister, Winsome and her husband are the rich members of the family who host family functions, parties, celebrations, and Christmas, which everyone is expected to attend. They also support Martha’s family. “Family” extends to Patrick, a boarding-school friend of one of their kids.We learn in the first sentence of the book that Patrick and Martha marry, but as the memories move back and forth, it is easy to wonder if they will, in fact, ever get together. She is stubborn and difficult. He is shy. She moves between fiery and morose. He seems pretty even-tempered.It’s no secret that she’s suffering from something and finds solace sitting under her father’s desk at one point. It reminded me of the famous photo of Caroline Kennedy sitting under JFK’s desk, except Martha was considerably older. She sometimes sits under her own. It also reminded me of Temple Grandin saying how much comfort a squeeze crate gives to some autistic people. She built her own. Kind of a hug-machine. Maybe it helps with that sense of “feeling at loose ends”. I never thought of it that way.“As soon as I got home, I went upstairs and got into the space under my desk and sat still like a small animal that instinctively knows it’s dying. I stayed there for days, coming down for food and the bathroom, and eventually just the bathroom.”Watching Martha cope, work, live, have affairs, weep, and cause her family terrible worry is a lot more entertaining than seems possible. It is not a preachy-teachy book. But it does show how humans are connected to each other in spite of themselves. What you say matters.Of course, we hear only Martha’s side of the story. She is the one who introduces us to everyone and how they impact her and her life. She’s devoted to Ingrid and knows her well.“Before the end of the party, I knew she was going to marry him because although he was beside her all night, he did not challenge her on a single point of an anecdote while she was telling it, even though my sister’s anecdotes are always a three-way combination of hyperbole, lies and factual inaccuracy.”Her family and friends move between patient sympathy and frustrated annoyance, when they scold and lecture her about taking their feelings into account. Is she just putting it on for attention? Her symptoms are so varied and the doctors’ assorted medications just make her feel awful.“I didn’t get up then, or the next day. I stopped leaving the apartment. In the daytime, I could not make the rooms dark enough. It sliced through the curtains, found cracks under the pillows and T-shirts I put over my head and hurt my eyes even when, trying to sleep, I covered them with my hands.”Her condition is never named. The author just uses a long dash to indicate a blank, rather than specify something. It will remind readers of other works that deal with various mental conditions: bi-polar, depression, schizophrenia, and the like. But this disclaimer at the very end of the book is important. “This is a work of fiction. The nature and combination of medical symptoms described are not consistent with any actual mental illness. Yes, it’s a work of fiction, but by golly, it’s real, and it’s now a favourite of mine. Do not be put off by the darkness. She is smart, funny, and determined, but most importantly, she accepts that she is loved. Thanks to NetGalley and HarperCollins for the preview copy from which I've quoted, so quotes may have changed in the final publication.You can listen to a great interview with the author on the Words and Nerds podcast here:https://player.fm/series/words-and-ne...

I was expecting this to be another run of the mill story about a depressed woman, instead I got a searingly honest view of a woman Martha who experiences the tumultuous effects of a undiagnosed then diagnosed mental health illness, seeing her navigate her emotional ups and downs was a bleak insight into such an insidious disease, her condition making for complicated relationships with everyone around her. Although this book discusses the heaviness of depression it’s also lightened with many many funny moments. It’s brilliant in its ability to speak honestly about a difficult subject matter, but also showing the amusing in between moments, her relationships with her loved ones especially with her unwaveringly supportive sister is dark comedy gold, those were my favourite parts of this book and thankfully many of those moments and conversations between the sisters were littered throughout this book that it added a form of relief and a distraction to how much I was disliking Martha! As much as I enjoyed this book despite its subject matter I think I need to pick something lighter for my next read, open to suggestions!

It took me way too long to read this book. I had a feeling I would love it. The title Sorrow and Bliss could not be more apropos. The main character, Martha, is the center of this deeply personal share of her life, juggling her mental health beginning as a teenager. The writing pulled me in immediately. It’s sincere and brutally honest. I have many favorite attributes of books, but sincerity… authenticity in a character’s story… I’m guaranteed to love it when it’s a smoothly written, interesting narrative. I saw myself in Martha in many ways, even if I’ve not walked in all the same shoes as her, I’ve shared some, and it made me feel as if I had shared them all because her story is so insightful. Empathy and perspective is another big reason why I read.There was more sorrow here than bliss, but the most rewarding part was finding Martha’s bliss. I felt like I needed to help her look back on her life and discover those moments when she was happiest. And guess what? Through that lens, it made me do the same reflection on my life.It bugged me at first when Martha’s mental illness wasn’t named and was called “blank” (I put the book down for over 24 hours. I was mad!), but then I read an article about why the author wrote it that way. I needed there to be a reason. My professional life is spent advocating for individuals and their needs, pushing past labels that don’t define them, and I appreciated the need to check my feelings. I picked it back up and read through the end.Meg Mason delivered a conclusion for Martha that made the rocky journey getting there so satisfying. Maybe in a way different than I expected but satisfying nonetheless. Sorrow and Bliss is definitely a worthy Women’s Prize contender. And if they’ve announced who won, please don’t tell me. I’m trying to read a few more from the list before I find out. 😂I received a gifted copy.Many of my reviews can also be found on my blog: www.jennifertarheelreader.com and instagram: www.instagram.com/tarheelreader

While Sorrow and Bliss essentially does fit into the tradition of ‘sad girl novels’, it contains a certain quality which makes it a little different from the rest. Perhaps it’s because it feels more mature – our protagonist, Martha, has just turned 40 and has also recently separated from her husband, Patrick, which we find out right at the start of the novel. This spurs Martha on to detail how she ended up at this current point in her life, her story moving back and forth but largely orbiting around her mental health struggles, which she states began when a ‘bomb went off in her brain’ at 17. Maybe it’s because despite the dark subject matter, one of the most appropriate adjectives to describe this book would be ‘funny’ – thanks to Martha’s dry, sarcastic humour, the witty and contemporary social observations, and the great cast of characters who all shine in their own right. It could be because amidst it all, this book contains a tender love story which I definitely didn’t expect going in. Or perhaps, Sorrow and Bliss feels different because it contains one of the most painfully raw depictions of mental illness that I have ever read.  Sorrow and Bliss is an absolute feat of a character study. Martha is such a compelling narrator; she self-sabotages and constantly lashes out, but she is also incredibly funny, tender, and loving. It is through Martha’s complexities that Mason is able to convey the pure reality and destruction of mental illness, the importance of correct diagnosis, and how mental illness can tear through an entire family, its effects rippling from the individual out to everyone else. For a book about mental illness, Sorrow and Bliss contains a particularly interesting creative choice – Martha’s diagnosis is never explicitly named. This omission seems to hold the most important messages of the novel – how dangerous misdiagnosis can be, and also a comment on society’s obsession with labels. It’s easy to imagine some readers becoming frustrated at not knowing Martha’s diagnosis, but Mason employs this technique to give those readers a peek into how it feels to be mentally ill and the pain of not knowing – not knowing what’s wrong with you, not knowing why you’re like this, not knowing if it will ever get better.  While labels are obviously important and life-saving for some, not giving Martha a label in this instance offers her an element of freedom, she is able to be a full person, she is able to simply be Martha, instead of just being reduced to ‘a mentally ill woman’. It’s a reminder that mental illness is only a part of who you are, it is not who you are. I can’t remember the last time a book emotionally resonated with me so deeply and on such a personal level. We all need a book to make us feel like this to remind us why we read. I’d implore you to pick it up if you haven’t yet.

Now Shortlisted for the Women's Prize for Fiction 2022Mason explores a very painful and difficult topic: How do you determine whether a person's behavior can be ascribed to their mental illness or whether it must be ascribed to them simply behaving badly, on their own agency? And she does pull that off in a narrative told from the perspective of the person suffering from an unspecified mental condition: Martha has known that something is wrong since she was a teenager, but it takes years until she is diagnosed correctly - but does that improve her health? And who is to blame for her two failed marriages, her illness or her personality? Not only do the people around her struggle to answer that question and thus to find a way to treat her right, she herself is unsure - and not to be able to trust your own mind is a terrifying thought. We meet Martha after her second husband has left her shortly after her 40th birthday - and right from the start, she seems like a difficult, troubled, and sad person. Slowly, we get to learn about her backstory and her suffering, how she has wronged the people around her and how she has been wronged by them. Necessarily, Martha must remain an unreliable narrator, which is only one of the many reasons we as readers have a hard time judging. And for all those now longing to comment that judging a mentally ill person is not right: Please spare me, I happen to know how Martha's husband must have felt, and I know what it means for caretakers to be told that their feelings of sadness, anger and helplessness are not valid. In fact, they are very valid. Martha's tone as a narrator is very sardonic, which underlines her (limited, but nonetheless existent) ability to self-reflect and her intelligence. The humor always has a melancholic undertone, but it also helps with the effective portrayal of supporting characters like Martha's sister Ingrid or her alcoholic mother. This cast would make a fun movie by Sofia Coppola. A wonderful discovery - thanks, Women's Prize!

Think Where'd You Go Bernadette meets Fleabag, with a dash of Bridget Jones’s Diary thrown in. Ever since "a bomb went off in her brain" when she was a teenager, 40-year-old Martha has been coping with an unnamed mental illness. She can be cutting and rude, and completely lacks a filter, wreaking emotional havoc on those around her. Avoiding a heavy tone, Mason explores the nuances of severe mental illness, providing an interior perspective of how it might feel to live within its grasp. While Mason's subject matter is often bleak, I found her inner narrative to be often hilarious. I also appreciated the hopeful ending. The charming cover doesn't indicate some of the triggering content inside, so be mindful when you pick this one up.

Now winner of the 2022 British Book Awards Best Novel Prize and shortlisted for the 2022 Women's Prize I saw shame and hope and grief, guilt and love, sorrow and bliss, kitchens, sisters and mothers, joy, fear, rain, Christmas, gardens, sex and sleep and presence and absence, the parties, Patrick’s goodness. My striking unlikeability and attention-seeking punctuation.I could see what I had now. Everything people want in books, a home, money, to not be alone, all there in the shadow of the one thing I didn’t have. Even the person, a man who wrote speeches about me, and gave things up for me, who sat beside the bed for hours while I was crying or unconscious, who said he’s never change his mind about me and stayed even after he knew I was lying to him, who only hurt me as much as I deserved, who put oil in the car and would never have left me if I hadn’t told him to. Claire Fuller (Costa Novel award winning and Women’s Prize shortlisted author of “Unsettled Ground”) starts her brief put accurate review of this novel with a line I can only borrow “If The Bell Jar and Flea Bag had a child = Sorrow and Bliss”If pushed I would probably go for: Ottessa Moshfegh with Ostensible MotivationAnd the other thing that is most notable about this book is that were one to have a book group on it (or even to discuss it on Goodreads) the one part of the book that simply has to be discussed is not a plot twist, a narrative style, a set piece scene or a character arc (although I should stress that the book scores strongly on all of these but one word or more specifically one non-word, to be precise: “-- --" The book is narrated (we later find, in what is not really a spoiler, in the form of a written journal) by Martha Friel – starting on her 40th birthday in 2018 but ranging back to when she was 16 (and first met her future husband Patrick – then an effectively orphaned school friend of her younger cousin) and forwards into the aftermath of her birthday. Martha is the daughter of an obscure poet (now more a wanabee poet) father and a more successful installation sculptor (of minor importance despite her alcoholism) mother – her humorous sister Ingrid is married with a series of young children. Martha writes a humorous food column for Waitrose, while Patrick (who loved Martha from when he was 13) is an intensive care consultant – the two living on a bland Executive estate in Oxford (where they twice yearly roll forwards a rental contract: a sign of the lack of permanence which underlies their marriage).Martha’s life though is defined from an incident when she was 17 when a “bomb went off in her brain” and some form of never pinned down but variously diagnosed mental illness blighted her life and her relations with others. Through her words we read of: her complex but vital, tender but fiery relationship with Ingrid (see PPPS); her disastrous and annulled first marriage; her eventual marriage to the patient Patrick and the difficulties the two of them go through; her ambivalent certainty (the phrase is mine and the oxymoron deliberate) about her desire to have children of her own.All of this is written in a prose which is deliberately prosaic and non-novelistic. The author has said “If a character sits down, Martha says ‘he sat down.’ Not ‘he collapsed onto the well-worn, velvet sofa, riven with anxiety, as a sharp wind forced its way through the peeling window frames like ice cold fingers’”. But for everything the novel lacks in (unnatural) linguistic invention, it gains in emotional intensity. This is novel and a narrator that are shaded both light and dark and that are at times frustrating and even downright annoying (towards the book’s end many of the very characters closest to her – mother, sister, husband – find themselves almost forced to give up on Martha, and the reader can feel like they were at the same place some time before the author); but on many other occasions wryly observant and also deeply moving.A key part of the novel is when Martha self refers to a psychologist and suddenly receives a diagnosis which although initially very reluctant to accept (due to its connotations among the general public) Martha realises makes sense of much of her life (and even in turns out some of her family history). The diagnosis though (and its withholding from the reader) is the crucial word of the book and this is added to by a disclaimer at the book’s end about the inconsistency of the medical symptoms with any genuine mental illness. I believe this decision was a valid one – the author seems (from interviews) to have not set out to write the book she ended producing and been concerned about both the comedy in the book and the way in which she had deliberately blended conditions. She has also said she did not want either her character or the novel to be labelled as the book about X (something she acknowledges is ironical as Martha herself “quests for a label”). However it does mean that the effect of the not-naming causes us to question our preconceptions about the novel (is this really an empathetic novel about mental illness as it is often portrayed, or really a darkly humorous one about dysfunction induced by soceital and familial expectations of females). But perhaps this nicely (if I think inadvertently) mirrors how the actual (in the novel) naming of the condition causes Martha to question her preconceptions about her life and even the wisdom of conceptions (and conception!).Overall I am conflicted over this book – but it is definitely a memorable one and would I think be a good prize list addition or book club choice largely due to the conflict it induces in a reader.PS: one additional comment. There is I think a writing error in this book - a NZ born, Australian born author who has lived in England should know better than to have a purely English character refer to "the median line" on a road.PPS Paul has pointed out to me that the latest edition has an interview with the author where she says I did get every single British and Irish person I could lay my hands on to read it beforehand, because I have such a horror of [writing] jackhammer when it should be a pneumatic drill. I had people just going through finding those for me, which I was so grateful for because I was worried that it wouldn't ring true.. Unfortunately (my observation) they missed one.PPPS In the shortlist videos the author revealed that Ingrid was originally meant to be revealed at the end as a figment of Martha’s imagination - a kind of alternative life Martha imagined for herself if the “bomb” had not gone off in her brain …. But she felt that Ingrid as a presence in Martha’s life and ad a positive character in the novel was needed to give the book more lightness.

If this was the last book I ever read I think I would die happy. This honestly blew me away. So heartwarming yet heartbreaking at the same time. I don't know how but this book made me feel every single emotion at once.

3.5 - 4This novel has been promoted in Australia as "humorous and heartwrenching, for those who loved Fleabag and Normal People". When I spotted the newly added library audiobook I jumped at the opportunity to listen to it.I kept waiting, and waiting, and waiting for the humour to make an appearance. It never did. I was expecting irreverence, some shocking behaviours and observations, a la Fleabag, those never occurred. I got annoyed with myself for (partially) falling for the marketing. While the novel itself is readable, the writing was, for the most part, flat and, occasionally, jumpy. I wondered if it was intentional, since the narrator, Martha suffers from an undisclosed mental/mood/personality disorder - which remains unnamed. Speaking of the disorder, I both admired and got annoyed that it was kept a mystery. The wanna-be doctor in me needs diagnosis, even though I understood that Mason didn't want to put the spotlight on a particular disease, but on being misdiagnosed and the suffering that affects not only the patient but everyone close. The last quarter picked up the pace and my dopamine levels surged. The resolution was satisfying.In conclusion, I wanted to love Sorrow and Bliss more than I did. I don't regret the time spent in its company.

If The Bell Jar and Flea Bag had a child = Sorrow and Bliss. Full of genuinely funny asides and dialogue cut through with some serious mental health issues. Sometimes the two extremes mixed in a swirling, heady, tragic delight. Only occasionally did everyone seem just a little too witty and maybe the mental health challenges were resolved a little too easily by the end. Really though the witty tragedy, the sorrow and the bliss win out. Recommended.

Read it in a day.At first, I found this story exceedingly reminiscent of My Year of Rest and Relaxation and Eleanor Oliphant Is Completely Fine, both of which I had mixed feeling about. Sorrow and Bliss is also about a woman struggling with her mental health. But even though this felt familiar, British humor never fails to suck me in. (I don't know how exactly an Australian author managed this.) Depressing wit remains my catnip, and this book was both funny and tremendously sad. Eventually this novel morphed into a love story, and then an examination of what we are once we are liberated of our mental health struggles. Martha's narrative voice worked wonders for me and even made me forget that I generally don't care about books that have as many children and pregnancies in them as Sorrow and Bliss does.I am off reading Meg Mason's only other novel.

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