Ignite Me audiobook

”Words, I think, are such unpredictable creatures.No gun, no sword, no army or king will ever be more powerful than a sentence. Swords may cut and kill, but words will stab and stay, burying themselves in our bones to become corpses we carry into the future, all the time digging and failing to rip their skeletons from our flesh.”Do you still remember my review of “Unravel me”? Yes?! Okay! Then let me tell you something: “Ignite me” was so much better than the last book!!!! I don’t know how Tahereh Mafi did it but she killed me!!!! I died about a thousand deaths while I read this book and I have absolutely no clue how I even survived to read this!!! Gosh, that book left me reeling and laughing and gasping and crying and swooning and drooling and I had absolutely no idea what to do with all those feels!!!I bit my nails, I was desperate, I was hopeful, I wanted to smash the book against a wall - which would have been pretty bad because I read it on my e-reader and I’m quite certain it wouldn’t have survived this special kind of treatment *lol* - I wanted to shake some of the characters, wanted to yell at them, I wanted to laugh with them, I wanted to punch some sense into their heads. (Yeah, Adam it’s you I’m talking about!!!) And most of all I really, really wanted them to be happy and fine!!!So yeah, I think you get the idea! ;-)It was an emotional rollercoaster and I actually loved every second of it! *lol* That said I guess I can finally jump to the actual review! I hope you manage to read until the end. If not: You’ve been brave and I don’t blame you! ;-PThe plot:"My eyes are filling fast with tears and I blink and blink but the world is a mess and I want to laugh because all I can think is how horrible and beautiful it is, that our eyes blur the truth when we can’t bear to see it."The book basically starts where “Unravel me” left off. Juliette has been saved by Warner and was brought back to base while she was unconscious. In the first chapter we learn that Omega Point has been destroyed completely and that Warner had no other choice than to smuggle Juliette into his private quarters. Of course our heroine is not happy about the bad new and wants to find out what truly happened and if anyone is still alive. So yeah our golden boy and our lethal girl decide to take a trip to the place where Omega Point used to be and it’s actually there, where the plot thickens and everything gains momentum! ;-) Since I don’t want to spoil you I decided to leave it at that, I’m pretty certain that most of you have already read the entire trilogy though. So for everyone who’s already read the books and for everyone who doesn’t want to be spoiled: The character’s section is going to be full, I repeat, full of spoilers!!! So beware my fellow readers! Ye be warned!!! ;-P *lol* The characters: Juliette: I loved how self-confident and strong Juliette has become. She’s finally capable of forming her own opinions and she doesn’t take – forgive me my crude choice of words – shit anymore! *lol* The old Juliette would have cowered and accepted the way Adam treated her, the new Juliette kicked ass!!! Quite literally as well! XD I was so proud of her! She finally had the courage to stand up for herself and her beliefs and she didn’t only make her own decisions but also made sure to follow through with them! It was amazing to watch her transformation and I was so glad she finally found herself!!! There was only one thing I didn’t like about her and that was how she let Warner suffer! How dare you Juliette! How dare you to break his wonderful and gentle heart!!!! I mean jeez I know you had to think things through, but seriously!!!! It’s WARNER we’re talking about!!!! That awesome hot guy who’s crazy and madly in love with you!!!! XD Open your freakin eyes!!! *lol* Okay, okay enough of the rant, everything is fine! ;-)”Or,” I say to him, “I leave, find your father, kill him, and deal with the consequences on my own.”Warner fights a smile and fails.He glances down and laughs just a little before looking me right in the eye. He shakes his head.“What’s so funny?”“My dear girl.”“What?”“I have been waiting for this moment for a long time now.”"I can’t be that girl anymore.For so many years I lived in constant terror of myself. Doubt had married my fear and moved into my mind, where it built castles and ruled kingdoms and reigned over me, bowing my will to its whispers until I was little more than an acquiescing peon, too terrified to disobey, too terrified to disagree.I had been shackled, a prisoner in my own mind.””I remember it so well.” I hesitate. “Dying. It was the most painful thing I’ve ever experienced. I couldn’t scream because my lungs were torn apart or full of blood. I don’t know. I just had to lie there, trying to breathe, hoping to drop dead as quickly as possible. And the whole time,” I say, “the whole time I kept thinking about how I’d spent my entire life being a coward, and how it got me nowhere. And I knew that if I had the chance to do it all again, I’d do it differently. I promised myself I’d finally stop being afraid.””This isn’t about Adam or Warner,” I tell him. “This is about me and what I want. This is about me finally understanding where I want to be in ten years. Because I’m going to be alive, Kenji. I will be alive in ten years, and I’m going to be happy. I’m going to be strong. And I don’t need anyone to tell me that anymore. I am enough, and I always will be.”Adam: Well, I think I’ve to take that back. Nothing is fine when it comes to Adam. Adam… that name… I just have to think about him and I become aggressive. Oh man, I seriously have issues with that boy!!! I already wanted to slap some sense into him while I read “Unravel me”, reading about his character in “Ignite me” I was actually tempted to punch him in the face! Gosh!! That stupid, stupid, stubborn, selfish, obnoxious and incorrigible jerk!!! And that’s actually me putting it more than just mildly! I hate him, I loathe him, I want to scratch him with my fingernails! How dare he to be so egoistic and mean!? When I read chapter 27 I was so angry I wanted to slap him in his stupid pretty face!!! Saying that he was happier when he thought Juliette was dead?!!?? I mean seriously!!??? WHAT THE FREAKIN HELL!??!!! Don’t you have any decency?! And then he even has the nerve to throw her out and to keep his relation to Warner a secret? *grrrrrr* I could go on and on about how much I despise him now, but I think I’ll just leave it at that. ADAM is dead to me and the fact he decided to get to know Warner in the end still doesn’t change anything about my opinion! What a stupid fool!!!”It’s not charity,” I snap. “He cares about me – and I care about him!”Warner nods, unimpressed. “You should get a dog, love. I hear they share much the same qualities.”What do you know about being alive?” he demands. “You wouldn’t say a word when I first found you. You were afraid of your own shadow. You were so consumed by your grief and guilt that you’d gone almost completely insane – living so far inside your own head that you had no idea what happened to the world while you were gone.”You don’t even know what you’re saying,” Kenji tells him. “You’re acting crazy – ““I was happier,” Adam says, “when I thought she was dead.”“You don’t mean that. Don’t say things like that, man. Once you say that kind of shit you can’t take it back –““Oh, I mean it,” Adam says. “I really, really mean it.” He finally looks at me. Fists clenched. “Thinking you were dead,” he says to me, “was so much better. It hurt so much less than this.”“And right now, I can’t say I know what Adam would do if I were dying in front of him. I’m not sure if he would save my life. And that uncertainty alone makes me certain that something wasn’t right between us. Something wasn’t real.Maybe we both fell in love with the illusion of something more.”Warner: He’s standing at the front door, hands shoved casually in his pockets, no fewer than six different guns pointed at his face.”Oh Warner… *sighs dreamily* With every book I read I loved that boy more and more! He still is awesomeness on two legs and if possible he got even more awesome throughout the book. Gosh, how much I love him!!! I’m Warner trash, I want to have his babies, he’s the perfect man and he’s easily become my no.1 book boyfriend. (Well, truth be told Will and he seem to share that place now. *LOL*) We finally saw more of his vulnerable side and I loved E.V.E.R.Y single S.E.C.O.N.D of it!!! I loved how he came to Juliette rescue when Adam and her had that argument back at Adam’s house and I was so heartbroken when he tried to hide his scars in chapter 32. And good god, I swear when I read chapter 50 it broke my heart into tiny little pieces. I was crying so hard I was even forced to take a break. That chapter literally killed me! I was so overwhelmed by my emotions I could barely breathe. My heart ached so much… that poor lost boy, to read that chapter was pure torture and just to remember it is actually enough to cause me to weep again. *sniff* Warner suffered and hurt so much throughout the entire book and all I wanted to do was to cradle him and to take his pain away. No one deserves to be so miserable and alone and I really hated Adam for hiding his and James’s true identity. If I’m entirely honest I also kind of hated Juliette for being so indecisive and when they finally hit it off I was so happy I grinned the entire time. =))))))I’ve said it before, love, and I’m sorry I have to say it again, but you do not understand the choices I have to make. You don’t know what I’ve seen and what I’m forced to witness every single day.” He hesitates. “And I wouldn’t want you to. But do not presume to understand my actions,” he says, finally meeting my eyes. “Because if you do, I can assure you you’ll only be met with disappointment. And if you insist on continuing to make assumptions about my character, I’ll advise you only this: assume you will always be wrong.” “He wasn’t trying to patronize me.He was enjoying himself.Aaron Warner Anderson, chief commander and regent of Sector 45, son of the supreme commander of The Reestablishment.He has a soft spot for fashion.””I have no one to impress,” he says. “No one who cares about what happens to me. I’m not in the business of making friends, love. My job is to lead an army, and it’s the only thing I’m good at. No one,” he says, “would be proud of the things I’ve accomplished. My mother doesn’t even know me anymore. My father thinks I’m weak and pathetic. My soldiers want me dead. The world is going to hell. And the conversations I have with you are the longest I’ve ever had.”Warner takes a hard, shaky breath. “Then what did you say to him?”Seven seconds die between us.“Nothing,” I whisper.Warner stills.I don’t breathe.No one speaks for what feels like forever.“Of course,” Warner finally says. He looks pale, unsteady. “You said nothing. Of course.””The bed is empty.Warner has collapsed in the corner.He’s curled into himself, knees pulled up to his chest, arms wrapped around his legs, his head buried in his arms. And he’s shaking.Tremors are rocking his entire body.I’ve never, ever seen him look like a child before. Never, not once, not in all the time I’ve known him. But right now, he looks just like a little boy. Scared. Vulnerable. All alone.””It’s the only way I know how to exist,” he says. “In a world where there is so much to grieve and so little good to take? I grieve nothing. I take everything.”I stare into his eyes for what feels like forever.He leans into my ear. Lowers his voice. “Ignite, my love. Ignite.”Kenji: I think that boy is the most complex side character I ever had the pleasure to come across. *lol* He’s funny and serious at the same time and he cares so deeply for his friends that it’s sometimes even kind of painful to watch. I loved how he cared about Juliette and how he tried his best to support her. It was pretty obvious that he didn’t agree with her opinion about Warner, yet he still accepted her decision and tried everything possible in order to understand her motives. I really wish there would be more Kenji’s out in the world and I truly hope that Kenji finds true love in the next book. Do you hear me, Mafi? I want Kenji to have a girlfriend in “Restore me”!!! He deserves it, he sooo does!!! XD If you haven’t written a girlfriend for him already, you still got plenty of time to change this!!! ;-) So yeah, do it!!!!! Oh and by the way: That’s an order and no request!!! *LOL*“You’re not bothered by all the heavy breathing going on over here?” He makes a haphazard gesture towards us.I jump away from Adam reflexively.“No,” James says, crossing his arms. “Are you?”“Disgust was my general reaction, yeah.”“I bet you wouldn’t think it was gross if it was you.”A long pause.“You make a good point,” Kenji finally says. “Maybe you should find me a lady in this crappy sector. I’m okay with anyone between the ages of eighteen and thirty-five.” He points at James. “So how about you get on that, thanks.”“Good for you. I’ll buy you a balloon the minute the world stops shitting on itself.” “Thank you,” I say, pleased. “You’re a good teacher.”“I’m good at everything,” he points out.“Humble, too.”“And really good looking.”I choke on a laugh.“It just gets really heavy sometimes.” He looks away. “Too heavy. Even for me. And some days I don’t want to laugh,” he says. “I don’t want to be funny. I don’t want to give a shit about anything. Some days I just want to sit on my ass and cry. All day long.” His hands stop moving against the mats. “Is that crazy?” he asks quietly, still not meeting my gaze.”Who’s Bruce Lee?”“Who’s Bruce Lee?” Kenji asks, horrified. “Oh my God. We can’t even be friends anymore.”“Why? Was he a friend of yours?”“You know what,” he says, “just stop. Just – I can’t even talk to you right now.”James: Oh that little boy was just so adorable and I had to laugh so hard whenever he spoke with Warner! Those two brothers had such an awesome chemistry and I loved how open and unprejudiced James was! Unlike Adam he actually saw the good in Warner and I just loved him for it! XDWarner studies Jame’s face with rapt fascination. He bends down on one knee, meets James at eye level. “And who are you?” he asks.Everyone in the room is silent, watching.”Why do you call her ‘love’?” James asks. “I’ve heard you say that before, too. A lot. Are you in love with her? I think Adam’s in love with her. Kenji’s not in love with her, though. I already asked him.”Warner blinks at him.“Well?” James asks.“Well what?”“Are you in love with her?”“Are you in love with her?”“What?” James blushes. “No. She’s like a million years older than me.”“Would anyone like to take over this conversation?” Warner asks, looking around in the group.”So, wait – then you’re not the bad guy,” James says all of a sudden. “You’re on our side, right?”Warner turns slowly to meet James’s eyes. Says nothing.“Well?” James asks, impatient. “Aren’t you on our side?”Warner blinks. Twice. “So it seems,” he says, looking as though he can hardly believe he’s saying it.Anderson: Thank god he was finally shot and didn’t even get a proper chance to say anything! I swear everything that man ever said revolted me immensely and I’m just glad that it’s over and that no word is ever going to escape his lips again. XD”And shoot him in the forehead.Twice.Once for Adam.Once for Warner.”So yeah, I loved the entire book and if there is one thing I didn’t like than it’s just the fact that the trilogy is over and that the ending was too fast. I would have liked to see more of the aftermath and I kind of hoped for some sort of epilogue, but considering the fact that Tahereh Mafi is going to write three other books I don’t feel the urge to complain! *lol* All told, I highly recommend the “Shatter me” trilogy and if you haven’t read it already you definitely should!!!! ;-)And last but not least: This was a buddy read with the awesome Megha and I was sooo damn glad I was able to talk about all those feels!!! Thanks a lot! You rock!!! XD”You know,” he whispers, his lips at my ear, “the whole world will be coming for us now.”I lean back. Look into his eyes.“I can’t wait to watch them try.”

Reread: I just realized I never wrote a review on goodreads for this book so here we are:5/5 stars this book is my comfort read.Juliette is one of my favorite female mc because of her character development and the way she never gave up and continued to grow and grow and become a stronger person. When you compare Juliette from book one to in this book, you can see a massive change in not only the way she talks and thinks about herself but also because of how she is respected by other people.I relate to a lot of Juliette’s thoughts in book one so I guess she is a very personal character to me and seeing her grow makes my heart warm every single time. Warner is obviously my book boyfriend and I feel like that already says enough but here we go. I really didn’t like Aaron in book one, not the first time nor any other time I have reread it because coming from Juliette’s perspective, he was a horrible person.Now he has always has a lot of respect for Juliette and yet again in this book it just shows how much Aaron really cares for her.The way he starts expressing his feelings towards her make me emotional and honestly jealous because I want someone to talk about me like that.The chemistry between the two also finally explodes in this book and I mean it’s definitely there.You can tell that they are a match made in heaven.Both keep pushing each other to be better:Aaron keeps pushing Juliette to be comfortable in her skin and understand that her power doesn’t make her something evil or something that everyone should hate and Juliette keeps pushing Aaron to be a better person not just to her which works (kinda).You can just tell that their relationship has respect in it and lots of learning and growing together.Kenji is obviously my platonic soulmate so I can’t forget about him. He brings everything to the table okay:He is a loyal friend that will stand up for you in any situation and is your partner in crime. He’s funny and loving and even if he doesn’t have any love life advise he sure does have lots of advice for how you can grow as a character and jump over your shadow.We get a lot more depth for Kenji in this book and find out more about his past and his relationship with everyone else like Castle and Brandon.Him and Juliette have such a great friendship and I find that they have the perfect balance of a teasing and fun but also caring and loyal friendship. We get a lot of other characters that make the entire group grow and we are at the beginning of the forming of a found family trope which is my favorite thing of all times.Now writing wise I do live Tahereh and I still to this day love the crossing out technique she used in her first book and just because she made Juliette a character that I really really like. Plot wise we are getting quite a lot of actions but also ✨drama✨ on love island which we all know is super fun. This book has a lot of tension and the story is written at a good pace and the set up for book four is there. Yet again I think the book had enough tension and enough serious moments to make me never feel bored at all and yes there us a slight love triangle in here but as you will find out pretty quickly, you can’t really choose Adam. Now about Adam. Honestly biggest change in character ever but somehow it all fits together and makes sense especially in correlation to their chemistry.That’s all that’s my take on my comfort book and yeah BEST LOVE CONFESSION ON THIS PLANET IN HERE LIKE WOW AARON KNOWS HIS WAY WITH WORDS Had to reread yet again

VIEW MY REVIEW: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HQj1x...March 2018What can I say. This is my favorite book of all time. Nothing brings me more strength than chapter thirty-nine. Nothing brings me more peace than chapter fifty-eight. I will never get over how every single chapter feels like a roller coaster. I will never not have to put this book down to catch my breath, to cry, to bring myself back to the real world. I've written enough essays about how much this series means to me so i'll stop being emo, but Juliette's growth and her resilience in this book is awe-inspiring. And so incredibly relevant and inspiring to my own mental health. When I annotated this book last September, I attacked the pages with blue highlighter to mark my favorite quotes from Juliette about staying strong, and there's one that makes me cry every time I read the book:I've been here before, I tell myself. I've been lonelier than this, more hopeless than this, more desperate than this. I've been here before and I survived. I can get through this.Last semester when I had a relapse of my anxiety that was so debilitating I nearly dropped out of school, I would tell this quote to myself. Rereading it after recovering from that point in my life just slammed into me because I'm so grateful for it. I'm going to cry again right now as I'm typing this just remembering how much this book touches the deepest corners of my heart and speaks so true to my own fears and the way my anxiety influences my life. I know Juliette's not real, but if she were, I would want to hug her and never let go. I want to hug this book and never let go. I truly want to sob every time I remember this isn't the last book in the series anymore. There's 2 days left until Restore Me comes out and I'm so terrified but so, so thrilled. This series has healed me enough to last for a lifetime; I can't wait to see where we go from here.September 2017YES I already read this book once this year buT THEN RESTORE ME WAS ANNOUNCED AND DYLAN SENT ME A COPY TO ANNOTATE SO LET ME LIVE!!!! So 50% of me reading this book was me being like "omg restore me prediction omg easter egg i didn't notice before omg new theory omg restore me foreshadowing," and the other 50% was me roasting warner and how much i still hate the ending of this book. a lot of people accuse me for putting shatter me on a pedestal but i wish i could mail this copy to anyone who says so because half of my annotations in the first half of this book are like "warner can fuck off instead of trying to get her to be in love with him" and "i hate when he does stuff like this." the boy is problematic, but what can i say. I think this reread really just solidified how much I fucking love this book for Juliette's character growth. I had an entire highlighter color to highlight the quotes and scenes in which Juliette was particularly badass, and there were entire sections that I think are really undiscussed in the fandom that Juliette really shines through on her own. She has an entire conversation with Kenji about, "It's not about Adam or Warner, it's about me and finding my own strength," and I think it's one of the most important parts of the series and an absolute turning point. It makes me want to cry every time I reread the scene that she talks about, "I was locked up in an asylum for 264 days because I made myself a prisoner to my own thoughts and suffering, but I never even contemplated that my own strength could have broken me out of there with my bare hands." It's so sad, but so revolutionary for Juliette's character development. The way that she unendingly fights for her friends and her world, as well as how she is ALWAYS nice and considerate to people no matter the circumstance, is always really inspiring to me. She's such a good person even when she doesn't need to be, and her empathy and compassion is really something I envy. I really won't be able to stand her suffering in Restore Me because she is such a precious child of mine that I want to protect.And since this is the fifth time I've reread this and I think you understand the depths of my feelings for it already, I'll go. But EEEEEEEEPPP RESTORE MEApril 2017This is the first time that I've read this and finished it, clutching it to my chest, thinking, "this book is flawless. there are zero issues. every action has a meticulously cultivated intention behind it. every single one of these characters deserves love and happiness. (except for adam, he can choke.)when i reread unravel me i was scared that i was losing my passion for this series because it really didn't make me as emotional as it used to but i legit cried during this reread at least 10 times so i guess i just wasn't feelin unravel me at that moment because i was feelin this every goddamn second. (i also hate rereading these because it makes me realize that half the fanfictions i have written are super out of character and i have so much wrong info that i forgot about. but oh well.)March 20152nd reread (idk why i didn't re-review this after i reread it the first time) what can i even say. it gets better every time i reread it, every time i notice new small details. (did you know delalieu has a mustache??????) i can still point out its flaws and i still am really frustrated with the ending but at this point, i know this book so well that i can see it like it's a freakin movie. it's insane. i love juliette so so so so so so so so so so so so so much, holy shiitake mushrooms. okay. i don't know how to pull myself out of this slump coming on. jeez.January 2014I'm filming a review but it will not be up until a couple days after the release datebut guys, prepare yourselves.anything feelings you had about anything are probably gonna do a 180.August 2013I KNEW IT I KNEW IT I KNEW IT I KNEW ITI THOUGHT IT WOULD BE IGNITE ME AND THE EYELASHES WOULD BE FLAMESBUT THIS IS SO MUCH BETTEReven though i hate the color orange BUT THAT'S OKAY OH MY GODS THIS IS MORE THAN FANTASTIC BUTwarner. why would she. warner. shes just making it seem like. warner. i don't like this. i do like it but i dont like itja feel?June 2013WE HAVE A DESCRIPTION ADFHJASKHFLASJDHFLSDIAHFKIDUSHAFLIDAHokay but you can totally tell that she and warner are gonna be together a lot, so it becomes clear that all the questions she's answered about there being a lot of intimate scenes proves it'll all be with warner unless adam becomes a third wheel which might suck even more.BUT I NEEEEED THIS BOOK :( April 2013I haven't read Unravel Me yet but i'm already excited about this one. Don't judge me.

I am so sad this series has ended. BUT IT WAS SO GOOOOODODODODODODOODODODODOD. It's impossible to write anything without spoilers, so please just read the series if you haven't.I want a certain character to have a spin off series... just sayin.

in conclusion, warner can choke me or whatever

reread: still waiting for my don’t worry darling fantasy to come true. (ifykyk)I’m all for the feminist life but when it comes to Aaron Warner I will become a 1950’s housewife and let him run me over with his car

(more of a 3.5) While I was satisfied with the ending of this book, I still had a few issues with it. I'll talk more about it in my monthly wrap up video. :)

aaron warner is so fine